Thursday, May 11, 2006

We Mournful Few


We're different. It's just that simple. We mournful few are different.

Despite the wonders of modern pharmacology and technology that allow humans to jam their senses and emotions with culturally approved nonsense, we see clearly and we mourn.

I have an obsession about being fooled. I am constantly on guard against being lied to and believing the lies. It no doubt stems from all of the years I spent believing the lies and all the years of my humanity I lost to them. I realize I obsess. But the difference between paranoia and awareness blurs in a society that owes it's entire existence to carefully crafted bullshit. I used to be ashamed of my obsession. Now I recognize it for what it is: A weapon in the battle for truth and justice. And yes, I still believe there is truth and justice in our world. If only you have the courage to find it.

In that, we are different. Comfortable lies no longer lull us to sleep. For some of you hearty souls, the lies never worked in the first place. You didn't have to wake up and use your painful eyes for the first time. You saw through the lies from the beginning and I envy you. You have mourned far longer than I.

For most of my life I accepted what I was told. I simply didn't know any better. Because it was all about me. Me. Mine.

It was not about Us. It was not about everybody. I didn't feel pain at the reports of mutilated children. I didn't cringe in shame at what my government was doing. Because it didn't affect Me.
Their problems weren't my problems. What business was it of mine how many Iraqis or Palestinians were robbed of their lives and homes? I'm an American and therefore above such things.

But now I know. The Palestinian child gunned down in the dust of Rafah takes a piece of my soul. The labor leader in South America, tortured by thugs hired by the Coca-Cola company to squash fair labor practices, wounds a part of me. Because I am them and they are me.
As we sit and stare at the box in our homes that gives us meaning and drama and heroes to cheer for, pieces of us are being stolen.

We mournful few. We see it all.

We can't look away. We can't pretend it all doesn't exist. Call it fate, karma, or even God. For whatever reason, in this time and in this place, we cannot look away.

Because goddammit all, once you have seen and felt the pain, you cannot unsee or unfeel, and humanity is yours. Your responsibility. Your burden. Your great hope.

Messiah complex? No. It's one of those awful, true cliches: I can't save the world, but we can.

Every one of us. We mournful few. We hurt for our planet and our people.

We are rushing headlong into destruction and the louder the sound of revolution becomes, the louder the majority of the "civilized" world turns up the volumes on their distractions.

But no distraction drowns out the pain of our people. Our sweet fellowship of humans, so horribly torn asunder by the toxicity of our greed, fear, and dogma.

We have no choice but to try and put right what is so wrong. We have nowhere to run and no way to hide.

We mournful few.


  • At 9:02 PM, Anonymous ML said…

    Awesome post. Many thanks Robert.

    Others discuss a similar quandary here: whether to save yourself, save the world, or just save the few worthwhile things left. The discussion really gets interesting starting with the 3rd post down.

  • At 11:43 PM, Blogger Again said…

    But now I know. The Palestinian child gunned down in the dust of Rafah takes a piece of my soul. The labor leader in South America, tortured by thugs hired by the Coca-Cola company to squash fair labor practices, wounds a part of me.

    that's truth, pure truth - and that's why people HAVE to be distracted, but distraction only works when they kill their humanity inside their "oh so beloved and godloving" souls...

    "You can hold back from the suffering of the world, you have free permission to do so and it is in accordance with your nature, but perhaps this very holding back is the one suffering that you could have avoided." - Franz Kafka

    Awesome post. Many thanks Robert.

    wholeheartedly agree...

    envy you for your writing skills, Robert...

    we need much more of you...

  • At 3:01 AM, Blogger Again said…

    we need much more of you...

    quoting myself - what does that tell you ;-) ?

    oh my English skills - if these words sound like you have to DO much more, than please, forgive me. I just want to say, that we need much more people like you

  • At 4:41 AM, Anonymous Barnita said…

    Thanks for the post. Its a reminder for us all. And yuup, we're so lucky to have you online. :)

  • At 5:19 AM, Blogger Again said…

    from mls link:
    Honestly, if the shit does hit the fan, people in rural areas will be the survivors.

    maybe - as long as the rural areas exist

    from mls link:
    You're absolutely right about saving yourself. Nobody can save the world. All you can do is save yourself.

    so speaks the last man on Earth (Nietzsche: "I will speak unto them of the most contemptible thing: that, however, is THE LAST MAN!")

    to reply with Prof. Lovelack (Environment in Crisis):
    "Before this century is over, billions of us will die, and the few breeding pairs of people that survive will be in the Arctic where the climate remains tolerable." (btw: i dare to doubt that a starving humankind will allow some of its members to survive in a small place without killing each other, especially with this "All you can do is save yourself" in mind)

    the problem with this limited thinking is, that those people, mostly believing in the determinism as philosophy or religion or even believing that natural science proves determinism - don't understand information, it's basic nature to be dynamic, but controlled dynamic, creating intertwined processes. You can't look at a single point (like yourself) and say "oh, that's fine, i take that and leave the rest" - everything, each human, each action, is just part of a "flow" of action. You can't separate one from the other

    that's what Lovelack talks about when he talks about Gaia ( Why Gaia is wreaking revenge on our abuse of the environment):
    "Control theory looks at it in a very different way. You look at whole systems and how do they work. Gaia is very much about control theory."

    btw: The "rural America" will be not "pleased" about it's future and i bet, that it "Honestly, if the shit does hit the fan, people in rural areas will be" the first to pay the price:
    "United States. Colder, windier, and drier weather makes growing seasons shorter and less productive throughout the northeastern United States, and longer and drier in the southwest. Desert areas face increasing windstorms, while agricultural areas suffer from soil loss due to higher wind speeds and reduced soil moisture. The change toward a drier climate is especially pronounced in the southern states." (Original quote from the Pentagon Report (p. 12)

    it will not work (just try to save yourself) it is, as Robert says:

    I can't save the world, but we can.

    "We must all hang together, or we shall surely all hang sepearately." - Ben Franklin

  • At 12:42 PM, Anonymous ML said…

    My mom responds to "We Mournful Few."

    I think I am becoming part of the "mournful few" is painful...thank you for sharing, mom

  • At 1:28 PM, Blogger Robert said…

    Wish mom a happy Mom's Day from me.

    And tell her there is always hope as long as just one person still believes.

  • At 2:14 PM, Anonymous ML said…

    Not to read anything into your post, but when I see the words obesession and obsess, I can't help but think obsessive-compulsive disorder, or OCD.

    There is a therapy for OCD (and depression, anxiety, panic disorder) that is suppressed by big pharma called inositol, and it actually works much better than prescription drugs. Here's the cheapest source of inositol powder for OCD, depression, anxiety, and panic attacks, 5 pounds, $38, includes shipping:

    While everyone's body chemistry differs, so far studies have shown that
    almost everyone who responds to SSRI's like Zoloft, Prozac, or Paxil, or
    who responds to tricyclic antidepressants, responds well to inositol therapy, and the response to inositol is usually better than the
    prescription drugs. Some people find they can taper off prescription
    drugs while remaining on inositol therapy. Other side benefits of
    inositol include reduced blood pressure, improved circulation, improved processing of fats, cholesterol, and triglycerides in the liver, and weight loss.

    Therapeutic doses are as follows:

    OCD, Trichotillomania (skin picking and hair pulling disorder) - take 4
    teaspoons after breakfast, and 4 teaspoons after dinner (about 18 grams
    per day).

    Depression, anxiety, panic disorder, eating disorders - take 3 teaspoons
    after breakfast, and 3 teaspoons after dinner (about 14 grams per day).

    It tastes pleasantly sweet, like powdered marshmallow, and may be
    stirred into a glass of juice if you like. It is non-toxic at these
    doses, and even safe at much higher doses, but these are the optimum
    therapeutic doses to take. Your body CANNOT get these therapeutic
    amounts of inositol simply by eating foods high in inositol.

    References of supporting studies follows.
    About orthomolecular medicine:

    "Orthomolecular medicine describes the practice of preventing and treating disease by providing the body with optimal amounts of substances which are natural to the body. The term "orthomolecular" was first used by Linus Pauling in a paper he wrote in the journal Science in 1968. The key idea in orthomolecular medicine is that genetic factors affect not only to the physical characteristics of individuals, but also to their biochemical milieu. Biochemical pathways of the body have significant genetic variability and diseases such as atherosclerosis, cancer, schizophrenia or depression are associated with specific biochemical abnormalities which are causal or contributing factors of the illness." -

    Following is one of the best summaries of inositol research on depression and bipolar depression. Inositol is depleted in the body by stress, caffeine, lithium, and valproic acid (Depakote), and drinking large amounts of water. You can't get this therapeutic amount of the nutrient from any quantity or combination of foods.

    The following excerpt is from:

    "Inositol (myo-inositol) is a B-vitamin-like simple polyol. Most people take small quantities of this nutrient in their multivitamins or
    B-complex pills without thinking about it – not for any reason, but just
    because it’s there. But in recent years, research has uncovered the
    powerful influence of very high doses of this nutrient on the mind – and
    its potential to heal wounded souls.


    Because the brain needs the cycle to transmit messages from neurotransmitters into the neuron, any weakness in the system means that
    neuronal communication breaks down, even if neurotransmitter levels are

    A decade ago, scientists armed with an emerging understanding of the
    phosphoinoside cycle began studies of high-dose supplementation with
    inositol powder by people suffering with a variety of psychological
    disorders linked to abnormal phosphoinositide signaling. These trials have found inositol to be a safe, natural nutritional approach which delivers effective relief for many of these dis-eases – often providing results as effective as psychiatric drugs, but without the side effects and potential for addiction.


    In one of the first clinical trials, researchers assembled 39 people
    with major depression or bipolar depression, who quit taking their
    antidepressant medications three days to a week before the trial began. For the next four weeks, sufferers took either twelve grams of inositol powder a day (two teaspoons, twice daily, in juice) or a placebo powder (glucose).

    Hamilton depression Rating Scale (HAM-D) scores fell during the first
    two weeks in both groups. An initial response even on a dummy substance
    is often seen early on in clinical trials for depression, because of the
    power of hope actually affects brain function. But while those assigned
    to take the stand-in powder remained stuck at this plateau from then on,
    people taking inositol powder experienced an additional 20.5% drop in
    their depression scores by the end of the trial. Plus, inositol was not
    associated with manic episodes in the victims of bipolar depression – an
    important result, since many treatments for this disorder push its victims into the opposite pole, with disastrous consequences.

    Inositol had loosened the jaws of the black dog of depression. And this was just the beginning.

    Bipolar Depression

    Buoyed by the success of patients with bipolar affective disorder
    depression who had taken inositol in the first trial, scientists next
    initiated a trial using only victims of this specific disease. In this trial, 24 men and women suffering with bipolar depression were randomly placed into groups supplementing with either 12 grams of inositol powder or an equal amount of glucose powder as a placebo for six weeks. All patients kept up their standard medications throughout the trial.

    At the end of the trial, half of the people taking the inositol powder
    supplement enjoyed a 50% or greater relief of their depression as
    measured on the HAM-D; likewise on the Clinical Global Improvement (CGI)
    scale, the same inositol supplementers were seen to be “much” or “very
    much” improved. By contrast, only 30% of those taking the placebo
    experienced such benefits. Similarly, twice as many people supplementing
    with the inositol powder improved by 50% or more on the Montgomery-Asberg Depression Rating Scale (MADRS) as people stuck with the placebo.

    The numbers did not meet the statisticians’ criteria for “significance;” however, they were so consistent that the researchers concluded that this was likely just the result of the small number of participants, and perhaps reflected the need for a more precise way of evaluating this specific class of depression. The effects the physicians saw in their patients lives left them confident that the power of inositol in victims of bipolar depression is real."

    Here is an excellent overall summary of inositol's importance in the body:

    "Inositol is recognized as part of the B-complex vitamins. It works
    closely with choline as one of the primary components of the cell
    membrane. The human body contains more inositol than any other vitamin
    except niacin. It is found in large quantities in the spinal cord
    nerves, the brain, and the cerebral spinal fluid. It is also needed for
    growth and survival of cells in bone marrow, eye membranes, and the
    intestines. It encourages hair growth and can help prevent baldness.


    Like choline, inositol helps to move fat out of the liver, and helps
    prevent serious liver disorders, as well as disorders involving high
    cholesterol. Serotonin and acetylcholine, two neurotransmitters, both depend upon inositol, and supplementation can therefore assist in the reduction of depression and panic attacks. Loss of inositol from nerve
    cells is the primary reason for diabetic neuropathy, so inositol
    supplementation can assist in improving this condition. Phytic acid, the
    plant source of inositol, has been shown to have anticancer properties,
    which may be one reason why a high-fiber diet protects against many cancers.

    Inositol also has a prominent calming effect on the central nervous
    system, so it may be helpful to those with insomnia. Studies on brain
    waves have shown that it has an effect similar to that of librium or
    valium. It can gradually lower blood pressure, and can be helpful in
    cases of schizophrenia, hypoglycemia, and those with high serum copper
    and low serum zinc levels.

    Because it stimulates muscles of the alimentary canal, inositol is
    helpful in cases of constipation. It can also induce labor contractions
    in pregnant women.

  • At 3:42 PM, Anonymous ML said…

    Mom replies to "We Mournful Few" again.

    [ML], I read and re read this...who is Robert?? It is so beautifully
    written, and touches the deepest part of my soul...I cry...I

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